I am really beginning to worry about my sleeping patterns. My typical sleep is something like 4:00 – 5:00 am to 8:30 am. Recently, I started making an effort not to stay on campus late at night, but it seems futile. I simply cannot fix myself no matter how hard I try, and I can only lie motionless on a bed for so long before I feel like I am wasting time. As a result, I often resign and get up again, fall asleep only a few hours before classes, and the next day is literal somnambulation. In fact, despite often oversleeping for 12 hours on weekends, I almost feel like the last time I was awake was months ago. It’s as if I have stayed up so many nights that my body refuses (much to its own demise) any decent amount of sleep. Anyways, I also don’t think I eat properly, and I’m rather obsessive (this truly is a curse; even if I somehow manage to establish a decent sleeping schedule, it is inevitable that I eventually pull an allnighter to read something interesting and screw myself over). I feel so dead all the time. I really want to get back to doing math and making videos again, but I need to find energy somehow.